A Fragmented Tale...

Hellu everyone...
Today is a rather depressing day.
I'm sick, and I just remembered a little while ago how hard it is to eat when you can't breahte through your nose. I haven't been sick in the longest time. And now I am, just as the weather begins to get nice.
How lovely.
I went to Wal-Mart with mom today. Got some stuff. Then we went to the library. I have to do a literary criticism paper on Alice In Wonderlad. It's really hard and confusing - and people usually don't do it until Sophmore year in highschool. So I was planning on staying there fo a few hours since there's nothing online I can use, and the books I need to use are reference books. But I was really feeling like shit. And my nose was like leaking on the books.
So I just went home.
After getting NOTHING done.
I'm just gonna go back tomorrow.
D= Hopefully I'll feel a bit better by tomorrow...

*Sigh*
I feel like exploding right now.
All of my friends are off at some band competition, so I'm quite lonely.

I suppose I'll go.
I have nothing to talk about, and I'd rather not bore you with my pointless rantings.
Have a good day...
<3

Hey there people.
I don't think anyone reads this really, so it doesn't really matter that I haven't been here in a while.
But if there are actually people who read this, I'm sorry for not posting in a while.
It's just that, almost nothing worth posting has happened in the past months, and I don't want to post everyday stating, "Nothing interesting happened today." That would be completely boring.

Anyway, things have actually happened in the past few days worth mentioning. On Wednesday, the 4th, the G.A.T.E. class went to go see a play. "Taming of the Shrew" By Shakespeare. I really liked the play, I thought it was good and funny. The only thing that sucked was that these girls from a different school sat behind me and talked through the ENTIRE play. I wanted to turn around and smack them. After the play, we all went to a pizza place, I forget the name, and Becca, Jason, Kristin, and I went into a booth. We got our own pizza and ate it in a matter of minutes. Becca and I, by far, ate more than Jason and Kristin, and when Mrs. Capadona came around with more pizza, Becca and I asked for it.
Heh. We're such pigs. =P
But that's okay.

Other than that, nothing has been going on in particular.

The school year is coming to an end, which I find horribly depressing, because I'll say it : I like school. No, I love school. I feel at home there, I feel loved, I feel like I'm making something of a difference. And G.A.T.E. these past two years - they've been amazing. The people I've met - the teachers I've had --- They've made me who I am today. They molded the anti-social, depressed 6th grader I was, to what I am now. Semi-social , and happier that I can ever remember being. It's amazing what a few people can do to change a person's life. Not for the worse, but for the better...
I don't want to leave middle school. I don't want to leave my security blanket of G.A.T.E. I don't want to be in classes with people I don't know. I don't want to be separated from my friends. I think basically - I don't want to grow up.
Don't get me wrong, I want to go to High School for the things like Drama Club... But other than that, it's all just intimidating.
I don't want to leave the place, and the people, who've changed me so much... The people who saved my life...
So now I'm sitting here crying.
So I'll leave you on that note.

Farewell...

Ugh.
Once again, a crappy day.

Today was the last day of school before spring break.
Most people are probably like "YAY! =D"
But I'm not.
I don't like breaks from school.
Because oddly enough, I actually like school.
I don't want to have to stay in this house for a week.
Not being alowed to do anything.
And having all of my best friends half way across the country on vacation.
School is more of a home then this house have even been.
*Sigh*

The past few days have been increasingly lonely.
Not really sure why... But I've just been feeling like crap.

Choir's over for this year.
I cried at the last concert on Wednesday.
Choir is my life. It's changed me so much from the shy thing I was in 6th grade.
If I didn't join choir, I wouldn't have any of the friends I have now.
And now that it's over... It's just all depressing.
I don't want to leave it.
Even though I'll have in it high school, it won't be the same.
It's hard to explain why I'm so emotionally attached to it.
It's kinda messed up thinkning about it now...

Whatever, I suppose...

"Happy" spring break, people...
<3 Liz

Hellu.
Once again, today was not an interesting day. ISATS fail. I guess I was wrong before, because today we did one of the essay thingies. So apparently we don't do both on Thursday. But either way, the essay things suck. They make me sad... We did another math section today too.
Besides that, nothing out of the ordinary happened.
Except for music class. For once in my life, I commented, out loud, on how obnoxious this one kid is. And when I say obnoxious, it's an understatement. I swear. UGH. It's hard to explain, but really, he's horible. So I finally said something, which was completely true, and he proceeded to make fun of me and call me emo. (Although I am not.) So next period during a movie in history, I started like crying.
D= It was horible.
Really though, I really don't like that kid. =/

I don't know what else to talk about...
So I shall go...

YUS!

Once again, not much to talk about or mention.
Today marked the beginning of the dreaded ISAT week.
YAAAAAY STANDARDIZED TESTING!
Eheh, yeah, right.
It actually wasn't too horrible today. We did a reading section and a math section.
It's gonna be hell on Thursday though. We have a double essay part thing. I swear, I'll like cry.
I'm not good with timed writing.
I freak out.
Like really.
I do.

Today after school I had choir. 2 hours of singing and standing. My back hurt really bad at the end of it all...
So you know what I realized today?
The concert on the 21st ends the choir for this year... It's really sad to think about. Choir is like my life... It's really kind of pathetic. And the worst thing about it all is that we might not even have a musical this year... Because Mrs. R's mom is really sick. *Sighness*

Blah.
I don't know what to talk about anymore.
Farewell

Holy crap.
I'm alive.
I haven't posted here in forever.
I acutally forgot my username...
Eh-heh.

So, I don't know what to write about. Becuase as usual, nothing has been going on. I need to get out more.
Oh!
On Friday, I went to the movies with Becca, Katie, Jason, and Brian. It was really fun. We were the loud obnoxious kids in the theater. And afterwards, we went in the arcade and totaly PWNED in the crane game. I got 2 plushies and so did Becca.
We have mad skill. =D

Yeah... That's the only thing I've really done lately.
Wait!
Last night I watched the Devil Wears Prada. It's a really good movie. But now I have the urge to get a total makeover. I've been meaning to cut my hair for a really long time now, so that's part of it. All I have to do is save up miney for a shopping spree... Which is going to be hard because I never get money anyway. D=

*Spazz*
Bye~

I've determined that it's not worth it.
It's not worth the tears, frustation, screaming, the hatred of other people, and the self hatred.
I'm just... done.

I'm taking the easy way out.
I am choosing to no longer going to include myself within it.
I will slowly seclude myself until I am not involved with them.
By the looks of it, they won't notice.

I won't care... Or I won't let it show.
I will bury myself in my schoolwork and choir.
Even more so than I have already.

So I guess...
The plan is in motion...

Here I am! You missed me, right?
Pft, right.

Well, here I am... I can't really post what's going on in my life. I know I'll get ridiculed, or bitched at, so I'd rather not... No one reads this anyway, so it's not like it would make much of a difference. But either way, I'll just keep on holding everything in and not talking to anyone...

So I'll just kept my act going.
Everything is great! I love everything! *Happy giggle*
Yeah, no.

Hm... *thinks* I got a keyboard for Christmas... I'm teaching myself to play... Yeah...
Not interesting.

Sorry.

*Flees*

I bid greetings to the few people who read this. First, I wanna appologize for not typing in here since that faitful family fight ...
Nothing much has happened since then, so I haven't really had a reason to... But today in Social Studies we got a Bell Ringer that really made me think... It was a bellringer about how to tell who your friends are, and what makes a person a friend... And it really hit me hard I guess... I haven't had many good friends in my life... And most of the ones I thought were close, really weren't... Whatever, I'l just type down what I wrote.

Fuck.

I just went downstairs and realized that I didn't bring it home.
Eheh...

But it basically said that I've had a lot of bad friendships in my life and now I find it really hard, almost impossible, to completely trust someone... And I just feel like crap because of it... Like, I want to completely trust my friends, but it's hard... And... Blah...

Whatever.

I expected this to be much longer but I didn't have my Bellringer sheet. So it's not all that long...
So I'll talk about some other random things.

School kinda sucks... It's not horribly hard, it's just annoying. I'll do profiles on all of my teachers.

Name: Mrs. Gabriel
Subject: Science
Appearance: Blond Hair, Sholder Length, Layered, Not Fat, Not Skinny, Mid 40's looking, glasses (I think)
Other: Her voice is really annoying. And she chews gum like a cow. So far, she seems like a total bitch. She blew up on Becca for something really stupid, and she doesn't explain anything we do. She just assumes we know.

Name: Mrs. Ware
Subject: Algebra
Appearance: Short (er than me), kinda chubby, blond(?) hair, big bald spot on her head, glasses, 50-ish looking.
Other: Has a really short temper... Likes to treat us like 1st graders, Doesn't explain anything, has a funny laugh, Seems pretty mean, I don't like her. She over alalized everything and confuses you by giving too many examples.

Name: Mr. Cornfield
Subject: Social Studies (U.S. History)
Appearance: Brown HairTall, wears the same tan kaki pants everyday, face looks like he recently got botox and he can't move his cheeks, Never stops smiling, Looks about mid 30s
Other: OH GOD. He has a really monotonous voice. It's way to hard to focus in his class. I constantly find my self drifting in and out of his endless lectures. He says "Thank you" Everytime you hand him the stack of papers from your row. He's like obsessed with Abe Lincoln. He's okay so far, he seems nice, he's just kind of boring.

Name:Mrs. Capadona
Subject: Reading + Language
Appearance: Brown shoulder length hair, short-ish, doesn't look to old but is probably around 50 (She's constantly talking about her sons who are married), I like the sandles she wears almost every day,
Other: SHE ROCKS. I wish I had her in the morning so she could brighten up my day. She's energetic and social. She laughs at our jokes, we laugh at hers. She's just awesome. She's not boring. She makes school fun. I wish ll teachers were like her... She gives like no homework and isn't like "Omg I'm a teacher, you must obey me." She's more of a friend... It's weird... She is so my favorite teacher BY FAR.

So there. You know of my school life.
Hurray?

As I said, schools going okay, it's just not great.

OHOHOHOHOH. I'm a Jasette.
Jason and the Jasettes.
And Ensomble in choir. It's Special. : D And I'm in honors this year. -Dances-

I hope this year is a good one.

Lizzy - Signing off.
(Lol I'm a loser.)

I bid greetings to the few people who read this.
Hi!

I got back from vacation yesterday. I'm really tired. I've gotten like no sleep for about a week. I had fun but I missed Coco. :3

School starts soon. I'm excited but then again I'm not. I get to see my friends, but I'm really not looking forward to the work. I actually have a goal this year. To actually try in school. I mean, I get good grades when I don't try, so I'm curious to see what grades I'll get if I actually try. I really want to focus on the work... And not get distracted by things... Including boyfriends. Well, it's not like I can even get one anymore... Whatever.

*Shrugs*

I also want to get in shape this year. When on vacation, I figured out my weight. I'm at 95-97. D: I don't want to hit 100. So I'm going to play DDR at least 1 hour everyday. Or, I'll try anyway... I was thinking of waking up, then playing for half an hour, then sometime after school, doing another half hour... I don't even know if that will work, but I just don't want to hit 100... And I need to build up endurance.

Hmm...
OH!

I'm actually in the junior's department for pants! Holy crap! Now I can actually go shopping with people!

Well, I shall update again some other time.

Buh-bye!